there is no confusion absolutely , now, 

on seed tree

egg hen 

horse cart

-these have been resolved by the wise spiritual guides already 

supreme is doing his own work..thru the great guru parampara , 

emanating from him only, 

he coming down age after age , thru generations 

narayanam, padma bhavam.........

and has been and is leading the shishya koti to deliverance

the hard fact is, that only assuming and even asserting that ''i am surrendering '' is no real surrender 

true surrender happens in the state of samadhi , when one's ego, and existence melts and merges in the supreme 

but not at all by any number of glorified mood makings, or words 

and i reiterate

truth cannot be lived without knowing what truth is 

for this guru guidance makes the path easy , instant

without guide it is impossible, in one birth , life long search 

we must come out of our own shells to see fresh light , for our own good 

it is easy to fall into traps, innocently , if not ignorantly

truth will emanate from heart for welfare of all, if truth is experienced

his think talk walk will be in divine love 

Osama's think talk walk though in unison, were not from the experience of truth 

but from ignorance for welfare of few. or whatever ..hence the result...

the point is 

manasa vaacha karmana --thrikarana shudhi --must have a basis of experience of truth , should not be on ignorance., half truth, assumptions, presumptions, hopes ,faith ,belief

if not results will be destructive to one and all

Not at all needed to fail million times / keep waiting for His darshan

he has manifested in human form as sathguru 

to make you instant success 

i repeat, instant success

Aspiration alone will not help 

i just wanting'/aspiring to be a great multi millionaire will not make me one 

seeking will not help 

my eternally seeking will not result in finding 

it remains only seeking , in futility 

devotion alone will not help 

all aspiration seeking, devotion are all binding , boats, and anchors.

but 

to reach the depths you have to get rid of all boats, anchors, and devotion, faith as well 

otherwise it is all only a journey towards a mirage till death , which is not very far