Wednesday, December 31, 2025

  It's a race with myself 


reaching excellence in 
quality and quantity
to discover more and more gems from within


it's an attempt to be intensely intimate with my self, 
a sacred 
duty that i owe to myself 


to rise to unlimited heights, 
to expand to reach the far far into the universe


to make the impossible into a possibility ,

into a reality

 

to win over myself
to free myself from all the impositions , lures 


to go faster than light
to penetrate into all the secrete labyrinths

 

to run at fastest pace 

to see god face to face 

rewards, awards ,acclaims esteems ,name fame,

praise, prize are too insignificant, not worth, no appeal to me ,

 

only incidental, accidental,

hence not objectionable, but not the object , 

i revel to create newness in every step,

in every opportunity, i make the most of every moment

  Knife cannot cut it

………… Since it is already cut and ground to the ultimate level possible into very fine powder in which no micro  particles exist, ultimate of powdered metallurgy,pulverization process

 

Fire cannot cut it

…………..since it is already burnt to the ultimate level possible into ashes in which no combustible fuel exist , with any  calorific value,  ultimate of pyrolysis, and  pyrotechnics

 

Water cannot wet it

 …………… since it is already rendered into water repellent, Impenetrable , ultimate of Waterproofing technology  

Air cannot dry it

…………… since it is already dried to the ultimate level possible and rendered moisture free, ultimate of dehumidification technologies

  my own earliest story, in misery, poverty. 

but i never prayed any god nor expected any help, 

nor complained, nor felt sad. 

never fought, never challenged 

never criticized, never jealous, not in self pity, 

i slept hungry very often, 

bare with a few rags, 

with a broken slate and torn note book 

and in severe cold. 

i was neither happy nor unhappy, 

never puzzled, never in confusion, 

.though there was no help, i felt no helpless. 

i just did day's work, 

learnt whatever i could, 

i to day before the desk top, 

i am the same poor boy, 

but with fewest wants, 

earning a modest monthly, 

yet saving and sparing a little to the needy 

whoever i come across, not a big thing. 

so i have not much to say further

  we learn alphabet , words, phrases, sentences, idiom grammar, prose writing, 

we jump we switch to poetry, meter rhyme rhythm 

we fly we freelance humor sarcasm metaphor quote what not

we enter the free space silence

we enjoy the freedom, 

we come back free

no more anything to restrict, just flow 

the consciousness flows

we the straw, takes its own course losing itself 

not to bother to run or walk or stay still, just enjoying , every moment every movement , in the way the flow happens, creativity unobstructed, finding its own ways newer, unseen unheard,

being sure that it is a pure flow, a flow of purity unsullied by any ills. and yes the stream is beautiful the flow is plentiful playful

The reader too flows, another straw, forgets himself in the flow , unmindful of hurts or flirts of the flow, sees the clarity the purity the uncontrolled nobility, the reader and writer at times unite at times separate all moving despite to the ultimate goal the ocean , the infinite ocean of consciousness, and get merged get submerged, get immersed get saturated with bliss the nectar divine, flowing from the sacred feet of divine and become one and nothing never to return


love is the relation we enjoy here.

my friend slaps me , pinches my cheek, 


but it is all the more sweet, 

we being in love

  knowledge increases wonder

my knowledge about myself 

makes me wonder more about myself

the more i know about myself , 

more is my wonder

the more i know 

about my creativity,

about my abilities, 

about my new ways on how i tackle the problems

about how respond to situations, 

about how i perceive newness

about how i express creatively

about how i draw new meanings,

about how i perceive uniqueness in the universality

my wonder prevails, sustains, grows

i am a wonder to myself

i am in flabbergast non stop

i am a mystery ever

the more i penetrate, the more i become mysterious

in me resides the universe infinite

though i am an insignificant element finite

possibilities for exploration unlimited

discoveries continuous, countless

never the wonder vanishes

as long as the universe exists

   

 individual is at the centre of the sphere ....

ie his universe...anda of brahmanda........

thru mind and actions, he radiates multidirectionally,

and rotates on the circumferences of different of radiuses ......

sometimes reversing, unexpectedly, ..

or crossing zigzag ...

sometimes knowingly sometimes blindly ...........

all with own will

or forced by circumstances or compulsions.....

sometimes yielding,

sometimes resisting ..........

all trying to be back at centre ....

but unable to know the way ...

guru shows the way....

takes him to destination ie the centre ......

his journey ends

   

god in my innermost speaks thus

why to come out :let me come out only in utter need,

unless it is a must why to waste my resources of sath ,chith, ananda--world, universe runs on its own, as per its own laws

 

if i have to come out it is only to restore the laws that are damaged if at all

 

i am uninvolved witness, ever established in the depths of my consciousness

 

i  have defined every thing ,  perfectly, unambiguously, clearly.  no confusion, no concessions,  no mistakes,

i have programmed every thing, including calamities, good and bad, with perfect understanding and deliberate intention, nothing is accidental, nothing is outside my sight

if any one is happy or unhappy it is my own intention, as a result of laws of the universe operating, in spite  of me ,and because of me

   

my heart says

 

-------god give me ability to act as per my heart

god make it possible to imlement haert's ways

i know this is possible only  in sathya yoga

but then please o god bring in sathya yuga

why are you delaying

let homeless purchase homes. i should not stand in competition with poor to invest in real estate  i have a house i do not need another plot or house

   

To name me is to designate me

to accomplish the impossible ,

 

to raise me , to enable me

to live that name,

 

to realize that name in real life ,

to shape me, to mold me ,

 

to sculpt me, to cast me, to construct me,

to paint me, to sharpen me , to elevate me,

 

from nothing, that i really am

from the colorless tasteless odorless raw material that i am

 

to enable me to grow as a personality

as an entity , as an individuality,

 

to become a visible god

from the invisible deeper potential at the core

 

Names make the forms

name is a seed sown in the consciousness,

 

sprouts, grows, becomes the form

good names create good personalities

 

bad names, curses,

create bad personalities

 

naming is a great sanskar

New name is a new life

 

narendra is vivekananda

gautham is budha

 

rk is param hansa

mahesh is mahesh yogi

 

rajneesh is osho

kaushik is vishvamithra

 

We have namavali 108 names, 1000 names,

each is a powerful seed

 

in fact one name is not sufficient for one individual

an individual is a bundle of infinite individuals ,

 

having different potential personalities to be activated

and brought to surface by appropriate names

 

now an anti climax, on the limitation of name !

there is much more than a name can tell ,

 

since ''name does negate''

any name is associated with form,

 

qualities, characteristics,

dimensions, geo, time frame,

 

and so definitely ''negates'' the truth of one's indefinable grand existence ,

and is a binding and a hindrance, a veil, an obstruction,

so it's not a unmixed blessing ,

 

how to reconcile the great positive potential of name

with equally negative potential?

 

simple

on the upward journey to reach the nirgun nirakarpara brahman ,

to the core of our being, the fertile field

from which all potentialities manifest,

 

one must ''get rid of'' all limiting nama rupa guna ,

transcend , go beyond and reach that field .

 

once established in that field,

now the glory of nama comes into picture

 

here is the stage the nama brings with it,all the mahimas

from that field as if seed sprouts

 

and yields crop of all virtues associated with every name,

into the manifest daily living of the individual ,

makes him mahimaanvitha .

 

here is the significance of all the names of all the gods

and one becomes the shiva if one wants

 

or vishnu if he wants, or lakshmi if s/he wants

as per his/her need and desire

 

all gods are now playing with him ,

sharing their unlimited powers .

this is how one needs to be familiar with his ''nameless'' stature,

 

and also one needs to invoke the names

and enjoy the ''name-fullness'' of that name

 

ie, one should be able to traverse

from parabrahma to any loka transparently,

 

by nama sankeerthan like narad and be also on the earth plane

with his official aadhaar card or pan card etc

 

think on how saints truly overcame the negating /limiting / downsizing effect

of the the name , form, and biodata, and asserted their real grand stature

 

Let us see what adi shankara said for these FAQs

 

1 Who are you?

He did not say his name is shankara,

 

But he said

I am not these limiting features

I am that unmanifest absolute Shivoham,

 

He asserted once again

shivah kevaloham

 

2 where are you from, ?

He did not say I am from  kaladi, kerala

 

But he said

Swadesho bhuvanathrayam

My land is the entire three bhuvanas

 

3 who are your parents, kith and kin,

He did not say parents x , y

 

But he said

Matha cha parvathi devi

Pitha devo maheshvara

 

Bandhava shivabhkthasya

 

4 who is your guru?

He would have repeated simply he is so and so ,

 

but he asserted truly My guru is

Gurur brahma gurur Vishnu, gururdevo maheshvara

Gurusakshath parabrahma

 

brahma, vishnu , maheshvara are my guru

verily, the unmanifest absolute is my guru

 

he again delimits the influence of name

negating the true stature of his human guru

 

really , the saints are so wise not to get bound

by any factor localizing their universal existence,

miniaturize / or negate their infinite stature

  

i no preach

high is my reach

 

not easy to catch

none to match 

 

full is every batch

with no patch

 

it's just joy

no coy 

 

Ignorant suffers life long
enlightened overcomes instantly, and lives in joy

  

 

 god designed system of procreation 
is just for one purpose of perpetuation 

it is not meant to be a mere recreation, 
in infatuation, sensual satisfaction, 

when god's purpose is not served, 
when god's will, the discretion, is not cared

never can anything be a prayer , nor a worship 
nor an offering nor a sacrifice

it's delusion, it's illusion, it's ignorance, 
it's madness, it's crime, it's arrogance

never never it's divine
not even bovine

it's inhuman, it's cruel. it's evil 
it's misuse of free will